I have always wanted to be a video producer on an editor for digital video and cinema, yet as the days go on, and life gets more complex I find myself straying further and further away from that goal. I used to produce multiple videos a week for my YouTube channel and shoot wedding videography and other fun stuff on the side. Now I find myself gainfully employed as a hardware repair technician for a large multi-national corporation.
I should be happy, but I find that the more that I fall in line for what this career path offers me the more I end up loathing myself for losing sight of my goals. I often complain that I do not have time to achieve my goals, I pour all my energy into my full-time job and that seems good enough. Every time I try to break from this I find that it is just easier to not take action fall in line and try and be grateful for what I have. Now that I am trying to get back in to making videos and doing more interesting content I find that the bar I have set for myself is far too high. I often look at my project and realize that it is not what I envisioned. Is it that I do not have the knowledge to complete the task to my satisfaction or that I simply don’t have the equipment? I find that it is often neither, it tends to be my perfectionist nature that I find spots where I stammer or stutter, or I just don’t like the way that my face looks or the way my voice sounds. Is it possible that I loathe myself so much that I can’t bear the sight or sound of myself? The harder I try the more I get discouraged. I found that I just need to break the cycle, stop focusing on the imperfections and just come to terms with what I can and can’t accomplish. I have been moving forward even with content and ideas that may not be a representation of my best work, but I have shifted my focus to output over activity. Make a video no matter how good or bad it is, and release it, its okay to not be the best its okay to not be perfect every step is a step forward and as I continue to explore my interests and flex my creative muscles I will get stronger. Moving forward I hope this shift in perspective helps to move me forward.
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NOTICE: This is a work in progress, photos have not been added yet. For those of you that follow me on Youtube you probably already know that I used the Pepsi P1S smartphone for a week. Things were going well until I found found out that the P1S comes pre-loaded with some Malware! YAY PEPSI MALWARE FOR EVERYONE! The malware itself is kind of tame, it will install applications without your permission so that the application can collect ad revenue. The one that is pretty concerning is an application called Prize Gene, this app will send out text messages to premium numbers internationally. So unless you have a really awesome cell phone plan that covers things like that you will probably want to get it uninstalled. So naturally you uninstall it, but *GASP* the manufacturer has marked it as a system app that can not be deleted. So first thing is first, you gotta get this thing rooted. Luckily enough a kind person at chinaphonearena.com has built a version of the rom that is pre-rooted and has almost all the malware removed. First thing is first you will need to install SPtool, this app will allow you to flash ROMs to the device. http://spflashtool.com/ Also install the mediatek drivers provided on the page If you are on Mac OSX like I am you will need to run it on parallels or boot camp. Download this Rom: http://www.mediafire.com/download/jegt1qqtmrdqjon/Pepsi+P1S+Huber7052.rar It is provided by Huber7052 on chinaphonearena.com so remember to drop by there and thank him. Follow the Howto.txt provided in the RAR file. Now that all that malware is removed there is one more step you need to take, Install the app "Titanium Backup" Then uninstall "UNI launcher" That is the last piece of malware left. Just make sure you have a launcher like ADW or Nova. Now that the malware is uninstalled you are free to actually use the device! NOT GETTING TEXTS ON THE PEPSI PHONE? CHECK OUT THIS VIDEO TUTORIAL BY WINCITY! you will need to re-program the IMEI of the device and SMSC settings. Follow to the 28:50 mark |
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